Sick of the bullshit

Why does one game control so much of my friends', and my own, life? Of course I'm talking about World of Warcraft, what other game would it be?

Despite my rantings on the game in my post a few weeks ago, and against my wishes, my friends continued to pester me about playing with them again, so I just gave in and logged on once again. We played for a while, and then one of my friends gets bored, so we switch servers and have to start over again. This happened no less than 4 times in 2 weeks, and it was getting more frustrating each time. By the 4th time, I just said screw it and went to play on my own, away from my friends on one of my old characters. The guilt of abandoning them was persistent and never-ceasing.

But then today, they all just up and quit out of seemingly nowhere.

So I should be happy I guess, I can finally maybe quit this game for good. But will I? I've finally made peace with a class that I hated for a long time and am actually having a decent time playing, despite being on a server by myself with no friends. It's sad, but was that the key this whole time? Although, it makes some sense. I've always been a loner, and until less than a year ago, I always chose to stay at home alone rather then going out with friends.

I don't know, it's a little depressing to think that playing by myself in solitude is when I am most happiest. There's only one person I'd really want to play with, but I've had him jump through so many hoops lately, I'm not even sure if he still wants to.

What really pisses me off the most is how much this all affects me. I've been in a pretty crappy mood recently because of my friends' indecisiveness on the game and how serious they take it, and today I just kind of lost it (internally, I didn't explode on anyone.)

So now in such a sport span of time, my friends' attitudes have changed from "Hey let's play some WoW" to "Dude, you should quit WoW, it's a waste of time." It's annoying beyond belief thinking about how much I am going to have to put up with that from now on. It was like that before, when I was the only person playing the game, but then everybody else picked it up and got addicted to it like I once was. That rabid fever you get for the game when it's all new to you.

That passion is long gone for me, and I think I might be playing more because of comfort and familiarity rather than truly enjoying every single second of it.

On top of all this, I have a bad case of writer's block. I'm pretty sure it can attributed to a mix of playing WoW and also just genuinely not knowing what to write next. I hope I can start coming up with things soon...

On the brighter side, I got an email from an old friend today and it's kind of nice to hear from him again. We didn't exactly end things in the best way, so I'm a little hesitant to get fully excited about talking to him, but it's nice either way.



I turned 21 on the 6th, and haven't done a single thing to celebrate/take advantage of my age yet. Although after today, I could sure use a fucking drink.

Anyway, here's another cool song: